Aug 28, 2019

When you are in the thick of battle....

When you find yourself in a battle...remember these things.

The enemy you fight is not flesh and blood. It is spiritual. 1 million percent. When you want to put a face to your enemy, put a name to it--satan.

12 For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:12


When we want to retaliate, fight back, and repay evil for evil...keep this in mind. This is exactly what the enemy wants us to do. He knows we will try to fight in our own power, and we will lose every time if we do. 


The battle belongs to the Lord. 1 Samuel 17:47

Repeat that scripture over and over until it sinks into that heart of yours.


When you want to defend yourself, instead, ask God to defend you. He will.

He will do more than we could possibly imagine in our defense.

The enemy is an accuser. [Revelation 12:10] He will accuse you of false things. He will make you believe you are not worthy and useless. He will accuse you of all sorts of wrongs and evils.

Satan is a liar. In fact he is the father of lies. [John 8:44]

The only way to rebuke his lies is by hurling the word of God at him. Calling on the name of Jesus...he will flee every time.

“The LORD will conquer your enemies when they attack you. They will attack you from one direction, but they will scatter from you in seven! Deuteronomy 28:7



Sometimes,  I believe we are too soft on evil. We are too kind and too "pure" to consider that evil could be having a heyday around us. 

Watch out though, the devil roams. 

Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8

We must armor up. Every single day. We must stay alert. 

When we desire the good opinion of others...we fall prey to the sin of people pleasing. We focus more on praise and popularity than the praise of our Father. 

For they loved human praise more than the praise of God. John 12:43

So often we depend on being liked, sought after and praised by others. It becomes an idol. And one that I have completely fallen prey to over the years. 

But, listen to what God's Word says...

Woe to you when everyone speaks well of you, for that is how their ancestors treated the false prophets.Luke 6:26

Persecution is part of the Christian walk. If we have not found ourselves under some sort of persecution, we must ask the Lord...am I being a man pleaser instead of pleasing You?

The way of Christ will always be narrow. You will not find a crowd of people around you. There will be very few. 

Jesus was perfect. Yet, He had few friends. They didn't understand Him. They questioned His motives and His position as Son of God. 

They accused Him. Time and time again.

We should not be surprised when the same thing happens to us. We should be ready. Armed with God's Word and His Presence. 

Through all of this...we are to clothe ourselves with Love. 

It almost sounds ridiculous, right? I mean, how are we to love when we find ourselves in a battle?

Because we have to remember who our real enemy is. 

We have to pray for our flesh and blood enemies and rebuke the devil. 

But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! Matthew 5:44

My precious and wise friend recently told me that when we feel that heaviness that lingers and makes the heart heavy...it is the deadly pestilence described in Psalm 91. She is right. 

The good news is...it has no place among us or around us. Psalm 91:11 says that He orders His angels to surround us and protect us. We cannot be touched by the pestilence. 

And, just like a bad stench, we can smell it and it is painful even to the smell.

But, the pestilence cannot touch you. 

Remind yourself over and over as you pray Psalm 91. Peace will flood your heavy heart.


Head up, weary soldier--The battle has already been won, 


jill







Aug 19, 2019

The Secret....

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But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33

We are now a little over half way through this year, 2019. Many of us made a vow to start reading our bibles.  We decided, this is the year! We will read our bibles every day once and for all!

However, for many of us, things got busy. And chaotic.

Our bibles were forgotten about, at least temporarily. 

It happens. 

But, it doesn't have to stay this way. 

Let me let you in on a little secret. Something that changed my daily habits. 

In 2012, I decided to read my bible from cover to cover. I had a plan. I had accountability [many of you reading this were doing it with me].

I stuck to it. Skipping days here and there, but I stuck to it, finally!

The secret was this: 

I scheduled it in my day. 

I had a plan. 

I made it a part of my schedule. Like eating, and drinking water, I planned it into my daily routine. 

Here is what I did each night: I put my bible next to my favorite morning couch spot. I pre-made the coffee so that all I had to do was hit the start button. I even had a candle next to my favorite spot and a little blanket. 

I prepared my spot. 

The hardest part was not going to my phone. I knew that once my phone was in my hand, I would be sucked in and my time would evaporate. 

This season of my life, I also had to set my alarm super early because my kids were smaller and it was the only time I would be able to get peace and quiet. It was a huge sacrifice because I was already tired. 

But, I did it anyway. I was determined to make reading God's Word a priority. Having SHINE girl friends helped tremendously. I knew they were doing it with me, and the accountability got me through a lot of mornings. 

7 years later, this is still my routine. 

I am telling you this to encourage you if you have fallen out of the bible reading habit. 

Start today. 

Create a plan. A routine. A daily habit. 

It will be the very best thing you ever decide to do. 

At the same time I began this routine, I started creating a little devotional for my children each morning. It was very easy and light, but I wanted to help them to create the habit and routine of bible reading as well. 

I knew that if they were in the habit at a young age, the chances of them sticking to it would be greater. 

My son just started college. He told me that he gets up every morning and reads a chapter of the Bible. 

The routine has been established. It is a part of his day. 

It can be the same for us. 

We just have to start. 

Proverbs are a great way to start if you are new to bible reading. 

Or, you can jump into our reading plan. Find it here on the blog. 

I have a dentist appointment soon to get another crown. Ehhh. 

I never made flossing a part of my routine, so I am paying the price. LITERALLY. 

If I would have created the habit of flossing, I would probably be much better off in the dental department. 

The same is true of our bible reading. We are planting seeds that will produce beautiful fruit. We are getting to know the Creator of the Universe...day by day He will speak to us in His Word. 

We just have to open our bibles. 

I do believe there is something special about using our time with God in the morning. Jesus often woke up early. I wonder if our spirits are more sponge-y this time of day. Maybe our hearts and minds are more open to hear from Him. 

 Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. Mark 1:35

King David also often wrote about spending time with God in the morning. 

In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. Psalm 5:3

I also wonder if we miss out on the opportunity to have a word in due season either for ourselves or for others when we miss our time with the Lord each morning. Have you ever needed to comfort a friend and just could not find the wisdom or the words to know what to do? 

Is it possible that our morning time with him provides us with the wisdom and the words that we need, and that others need that day?

I think so!

Listen to this scripture...

The Sovereign LORD has given me a well-instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being instructed. Isaiah 50:4

Create the habit. Get in the routine. 

And stick to it. 

We can do this! 

If you need some help or encouragement, I am so happy to cheer you on. Email me or leave a comment on the blog. I would love to be your accountability partner!

Have you found some ways to make bible reading easier? I would love to hear your comments! I don't usually leave the comment section open, but I am today so that we can encourage each other. 


one day at a time, 

jill





Aug 13, 2019

Do you love me?

I remember before my children even took a breath of Earth's oxygen--telling them I loved them. I would rub my swollen belly and talk to them. I would tell them stories of how much they were already loved. 

Most mothers feel this way about their children. Love for our children is something God roots deep into the fabric of our souls. 

However, somewhere along the way, we have the tendency to quit speaking this love over them. We think it, but we do not say it. 

The older our children get, we decide that they already know how loved and cherished they are. 

Or maybe, we just aren't affectionate by nature. Kind words are not easy for us to summon up, even if we feel them. 

Our children need to hear those words. Over and over and over and over. 

We need to take their little faces in our hands, lift their little chins and say, "Do you know how much I love you?' 

Or maybe if are children are grown and taller than us, reach up to their little chin and point it down to our eyes and say, "Do you still know how much I love you?"

Words are powerful. God's Word tells us over and over the power of the spoken word. 

The book of Proverbs teaches us point blank and bold that our tongues have the power of life and death. 

The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. Proverbs 18:21

What is our tongue saying to our beloved children?

What are our children hearing when we speak?

Listen, we will never be perfect parents. Ever. 

We will have regrets, and probably many. 

However, God's word says in 1 Peter 4:8 that "love covers a multitude of sins." 

And all the momma's in the house said AMEN. 

What would your child say when asked the question, "Does your mother love you?"

Have they been told enough to know. Have they been held and hugged and kissed on their little foreheads enough to believe that we really really do love them. 

We learn this so well from Jesus. 

Jesus was tender. He loved. And loved well.  

He touched. Touch often brought the healing. Isn't that something to ponder?

Maybe you were not brought up in a home with affection. It doesn't come easy for you. 

It's okay. Let's do it anyway. 

Let's do it awkwardly if we must. 

Our children need to see us, feel us, hear us. 

Our children really won't remember a lot of things that we think are important. 

Like, how clean our floors were. Or that all the laundry was perfectly ironed and folded. (NEVER going to happen)

What they will remember is how loved they felt. 

Speak it over and over and over. 

Have you noticed in the Bible that God often repeats Himself when He wants to get a point across?God knows we need to remember and to know and to believe what He is telling us. 

It is the same with our kids. Tell them. Over and over. Pretty soon they will remember, know, and believe it. 

They will roll their eyes when the teenage years hit, and say back to you, "I KNOW."

Keep telling them anyway. Those are the years that they especially need to hear it from us.

Years ago my nephew (very young at the time)  spent the night with us. I overheard him tell my son, "Your mom loves me soooo much. It's almost weird."

I giggled when I heard it from the other room. 

Something struck deep when he said those words to my son. 

Yes. Yes. Yes. I thought to myself. 

That's it. 

He knows without a shadow of a doubt, he is loved. (even if he thinks I'm weird!)

Momma's, we cannot let another moment go by without telling our kids we love them. 

Yes, actions are good, but words are POWERFUL. They stick to our bones. 

When actions are combined with words, it is the absolute perfect storm of love. 

Our kids will never be too old to hear us say we love them. Never. 

Ask any adult that had a parent who never said those words....they have deep scars. 

Let's speak the words, "I love you", over and over and over into their listening ears. 

Make them get tired of hearing you say it. 

Draw them close, big or small, and let them feel your arms wrapped around them. Kiss their foreheads and tell them how loved they are. 

We will never be perfect. However, my prayer and hope is that our children know despite all of our shortcomings, we love them fiercely. 


becoming a broken record of I love you's, 



jill














Aug 12, 2019

Goodbye....

Since writing is therapy to me, here goes...

We moved my son into his dorm this weekend. All went really well. No tears. Just new adventures and schedules and new people.

Until he walked out the door this morning to make his journey to school. 

Something melted in my heart when he held onto me a little longer than usual in our hug. 

I was so good...until that moment. 

My daughter, who was already trying to hold it together, fell apart. 

Her fresh mascara streaming down her cheeks. 

"Be strong, Jill. Be strong for them." I kept repeating this over and over in my head. 

Last night I tossed and turned. I kept waking up with anxious thoughts running through my mind. 

"Lord, help me here. I need you to give me...something."

I heard these whispering words in my heart, "The Lord is my Shepherd, I have all that I need." 

Psalm 23, one of the very first scriptures I helped to inscribe on the hearts of my children. I was now repeating these same words. Over and over. 

I fell back asleep with these words on my lips. 

He comforts us. He brings us peace. 

Again, I pictured Mary. The mother of Jesus. 

She endured the suffering. At the foot of the cross she endured. 

She watched so bravely as her Son left her....for good. 

Mary could have easily ran off and closed her eyes to this moment of suffering and pain. 

But, she didn't. She chose to stay. To endure. To be fully present. 

I'm reminded of some words from my friend, Kelli. Her mother passed last year rather unexpectedly. As her heart heals from grief, she said she was learning to eat the fruit of the moment that God gives her. Sometimes, it is bitter, she said. Sometimes it is sweet. Yet, she eats. Accepting the fruit from His Hands. 

Kelli's words soothe me as I take a bite of bitter fruit. Not quite ripe with sweetness, but knowing that God has good plans. 

I trust Him. With my all of my heart. 

My son was at the table eating breakfast early this morning. Disheveled hair, and sleepy eyes. I walked over and kissed his forehead. I glanced at his phone on the table in front of him. 

He was reading the Bible on his phone. 

There is not one thing on earth that could have made my mother heart sing more. Not one thing that could have assured me more...that this child was ready. 

God is so sweet and tender. He knew what my heart needed. 

He knew that moment would be seared forever on my heart. 

The fruit was sweet, oh so sweet in that moment. 

Whatever season you find yourself in...

Eat the fruit of it. 

Be present and receive what His Hands provide. 

Mary saw Jesus again...in angelic Glory. 

Without the bitter,  the sweet richness of the fruit cannot fully blossom. 

Several weeks ago,  a friend asked me to sub for her Monday morning yoga class for the entire month of August.  I excitedly said yes, but really regretted it this morning. I was tired, and sad. And just did not have the energy to teach. Who wants a teacher that cries the whole class?!

However, being surrounded by a room full of people, most older than me who have walked the path that I am walking, brought sweet healing.  It brought life into my wounds, and was exactly the salve I needed. 

God had already prepared for that moment. He knew I needed to teach this morning. Way before I knew. 

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

May we choose to eat the fruit He provides. He is good. 


i have all that i need, 


jill







Aug 9, 2019

Step by Step...

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The steps of a man are established by the LORD, And He delights in his way. Psalm 37:23

Tomorrow we will move our oldest child into a dorm.

My head has been preparing for this moment for a long time. My heart has some catching up to do.

He will be okay. I will be okay. We will all be okay.

But, it will be different. And hard at times.

Like, when I make an extra plate for dinner and then remember that he will not be at the table. Or, when I go to his room to wake him up and remember that he is not there in his bed here at home.

So often I think of Mary, the mother of Jesus. How she knew from conception that this boy in her womb was not her own. She knew that he did not belong to her, but to God.

Isn't that the case with our own children?

They are not ours.

We are entrusted to raise them and disciple them, but they are not ours.

They belong to God. They are made in His Image. Bearing His heart and mind.

No one on earth loves my child like God does.

No one on earth knows what is best for my child like God does.

When Jesus was young, he separated from his parents, and they could not find him.

He was in the Temple. Soaking up teaching and the Presence of His Father.

God had already put the Plan in Jesus's heart...even at such a young age.

This is true of our little sheep as well.

We may try to plan their lives, but God determines their steps. [Proverbs 16:9]

 They have a trajectory that He alone knows.

We must allow that plan to unfold without hindering it with our own emotions and plans for the child.

The same goes for us, the parents. He has a plan for us as well.

I know no other life but motherhood and duties inside the home.

It is my love and has been my purpose for so many years. Beginning with a childhood desire that was birthed in my heart so many decades ago.

And, it will remain for a few more years this way with a daughter still securely in our nest.

However, a new season still awaits. Change is still unfolding.

I must trust His plan even when it seems different and weird...and new.

He establishes my steps. [Psalm 37:23]

God will prepare you for the next step...even when you have no idea what that step is. You will look back one day and say....oh, I see what He did there.

He is gentle, and kind. He is patient with us. He is a loving Father. He doesn't force our way, but He gently leads us. He takes our hand in His and He walks with us step by step.

We are never alone.

When darkness comes and night surrounds, He is there.

There is no darkness in Him. [1 John 1:5]

Maybe you don't have a child leaving the nest, but there is change on the horizon.

Trust the Lord. He will lead you. He will guide you. He will comfort you.

God never changes. He is ever present. Ever faithful.

May I ask a favor? Will you pray for our family and this transition?

Please know I am praying for all of you as well. Praying for your cup to overflow with God's blessings and goodness! Praying that your faces will shine with radiance the Love and Joy of Jesus Christ. Praying for whatever season you find yourself in, that peace flows through your pulsing veins. A Peace that surpasses all understanding.


looking ahead,


jill










Aug 5, 2019

What I'm learning.....

My oldest child turns 18 today. He keeps reminding me that he is officially an adult. I laugh, squeeze his little cheeks and tell him, "sure thing, darling."

The youngest child started high school this week. 

When I started this blog, my oldest was in 5th grade and my daughter was in 1st, I believe. 

Goodness, they say time flies. It is true. 

I have been preparing for this day for a long time. Since 2009, to be exact. 

My oldest nephew left for college that Fall, and my sister literally fell apart. 

She had never ever had separation anxiety from her children. So, I KNEW I better start praying every day for when that season came in my life. 

10 years later, here we are. 

My oldest will move into his dorm this upcoming Saturday. 

Here are some things I have realized as I mother teenagers....

you will go back to sleepless nights. just like you did when they were babies. trust me, you will not be able to sleep once they start driving. until they finally arrive home for the evening, sleep will elude you. i was recently reminded of this scripture. such a perfect picture of God's love for us. He never sleeps either! so, relax, you are in good company. 
He will not let you stumble; the one who watches over you will not slumber. Indeed, he who watches over Israel never slumbers or sleeps. Psalm 121:3-4

you will doubt yourself and your parenting. daily. you will question and re-question your decisions. this is where much much much prayer will come in. seek the Lord daily, minute by minute on their behalf. He will lead you, but you must ask Him. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5

you will find yourself (especially on the older end of the teenage years) wanting to spend more and more time with them. they are little adults and their personalities are so much fun to explore and discover. you will even get your feelings hurt a few times when they choose their friends over you. this is normal. stay away from guilt-throwing. Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger by the way you treat them. Rather, bring them up with the discipline and instruction that comes from the Lord. Ephesians 6:4

you will have to daily depend on Jesus for your worth and value. the less your children need you, the more you start to question your purpose and your worth. you will often feel lost and get this overwhelming feeling of "what next?" don't stay in that place. read your bible and read His Truth over your life every single day. surround yourself with godly mentors and friendships to pour into you. you will need them. 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

pray. and pray some more. i never ever ever thought it was possible to pray without ceasing as Paul instructs us. you will soon find out, it is very possible. and quite possibly the only thing that will keep you sane. 1Rejoice always, 17 pray without ceasing, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thessalonians 5:17

keep pouring into them. they will roll their eyes and look away and mumble things under their breath when you have another "teaching" lesson. do it anyway. relate everyday thing back to the bible and stories from the bible. like, david, or paul, or esther. they will get tired of these stories, but tell them anyway. they are sponges and they will soak it up whether they  want to or not.  Repeat them again and again to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. Deuteronomy 6:4-7

walk the walk, and don't just talk the talk. this is by far, hands down, the hardest to do. our kids are always watching. soaking things in. how do we treat people? how well do we serve others? how do we speak of our parents and to our parents (their grandparents). be careful, they will speak about you the same way you speak about your parents one day. so, make it wholesome and good.  point out the good in all people, and stay away from insulting others in front of your children. they will repeat your actions and it just may fall back on you. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8


take advantage of any time you have with them. when they are little, try not to give them headphones and an ipad all of the time in the car. use that time to talk to them. tell them stories. learn scripture and make songs out of the scripture. my kids and i used to do this every day on the long car ride to school. we lived 22 minutes from the school. yes, i wanted to just have some peace and quiet without having to talk, but i KNEW it was precious time to pour into them. Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ. Romans 10:17

get to know your children. ask them questions. check their devices. REGULARLY. let them know that you check it often. this will create accountability and make them think twice. know their social media accounts. check to see if they have accounts that you don't know about. this is not being nosey, it is parenting. check to see who follows them and who they follow. be vigilant about this. kids want a lot of followers, so they often will pay to get them. this creates a very big breach in their privacy. Care for the flock that God has entrusted to you. Watch over it willingly, not grudgingly—not for what you will get out of it, but because you are eager to serve God. 1 Peter 5:2

we have had a family rule since phones were introduced to our children.  they do not go to sleep with their phones in their rooms. at a certain time each evening their phones  have to be "turned in" for the night. no child or teenager needs their phone while they sleep. it will only create sleep disruptions and can also create temptations for our kids. 41 “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Matthew 26:41

side note--a dear friend of my son's joined our family at the beach one summer. the boy was 16 at the time. his precious mother called me to request that I take her son's phone up at night. i told her i certainly would, and in fact we had the same rule. your teenager is never too old for rules and safety. 

listen to your own parents. when they notice things about you or your children, listen. we often think we know more than they do, but we really do not. they love you and your children more than anyone else on this earth. heed their wisdom and advice. they often notice things before we as parents do. years ago, my mother told me that i was on my phone too much when i was with her. i was defensive at first. i told her i had "important" things to do. she looked at me and then looked back at my children strapped in their car seats and said, "are we not important?" i will never forget that day. it made an impact on my heart and i heeded her wisdom. far from perfect in this area, i strive to be present. limiting phone time dramatically when with my loved ones. Honor your father and mother. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the Lord your God is giving you. Exodus 20:12

These are just a few thoughts I am having today. I am sure this will not be the last time you hear me trying to share what I am learning through mothering. 

Keep in mind, precious mothers, motherhood is a calling. A very high calling. Nothing on earth, besides Jesus and your marriage, comes before this incredible duty. 

Guard your nest. Pray over it daily. Protect it. Love it. Nurture it. Take care of it. Defend it. 


back to the birthday fun, 


jill
















Aug 2, 2019

Under the shade tree....

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"but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life." John 4:14

The air was cooler than normal today. I put my laundry on hold and made a run for the door to catch the breezier feel in the air.

I love to walk. It is my thing. I love to pray, talk to Jesus, and just breathe in His creation as I walk.

This particular morning, I was short on time. Lunch plans with my mom were looming, and I needed to make this walk quick.

As I was rounding the corner back to my house, I spotted him. He was sitting under a huge tree at our local school track.

I had not seen him in a while.

My pulse quickened. What should I do?

I really wanted to check on him and say hello, but I knew that would entail more time than I had. He liked to talk.

The Lord whispered so sweetly to my heart, "you said you wanted to seek out the lonely, Jill. you just wrote about it. here is your chance. this opportunity is not for him, it is for you."

I knew what I should do. But, I didn't want to.

Before my head could talk me out of it, I walked through the little fence leading to the track and to the tree that my friend was sitting under.

We made conversation. He filled me in on where he had been.

The talk is often awkward. What do we have in common?? Nothing really.

We talked anyway.

Lord, what is the point here? I silently asked.

After a few minutes in, I remembered the story of the woman at the well. The story that grabs my heart each and every time I read it. The story that I had just this week written about here on my blog.

My friend, David, was not at a well. He was sitting under a tree. He was finding shade from the sun. All alone. He, his bag of books, and this mighty tree.

I suddenly realized we were not so different.

How many times have I sat in a lonely place....so many times.

I am not homeless, but so often my heart craves for Home. In the arms of Jesus.

My friend is homeless. He lives in his van.

His temporary home.

We spoke about God and Jesus and religion...again. 

He told me again for the thousandth time that I was never going to convince him that there is a God.

I smiled and nodded, looking down at my shoelaces.

"You are right, David. I just want to be your friend." I replied.

His eyes met mine. He wanted to believe me I could tell. He wanted to believe that I was not just some bible thumping Christian looking for souls to save.

He needed a friend.

Jesus doesn't call us to save, fix, and heal others. He calls us to love. To befriend. To notice. To reach out.

I have fallen short so many times.

I can see the loneliness. I can smell the empty. I can almost taste the despair in his eyes.

Swallowing back fear and trepidation I boldly asked him...

"But, what do you have to lose, David? What in the world do you have to lose by believing?"

He looked down. For the first time ever, he had no response. No answer. Just a gentle shaking of the head.

After the silence, he begin telling me a couple of jokes.

I laughed and told him I had to go...but I would definitely be looking for him again under this tree.

He was trying to stretch the conversation....I could tell.

The loneliness was piercing.

I finally turned to go and felt this sadness wash over me. Oh, Jesus. I don't understand. What will it take for David to believe?

Oh, David. You just have no idea how much you are NOT alone. Jesus is with you. He is always with you. He has never left you, although you have left him.

Again, he and I are not so different.

I am a believer in Jesus with all of my heart...

But, I have often left Jesus.....clinging to my rights and my hurts and licking my wounds not once reaching out to Him....

Souring from the inside out at times because I forget....

I forget that He will NEVER leave me or forsake me. [Hebrews 13:5]

 I forget that the insults that fall on me, fall on Him. [Romans 15:3]

I am the woman at the well.

Alone. Rejected. Sin-filled.

Yet, He comes. He finds me. He rescues me. Every single time.

And He gives me Living Water to this parched soul.

He sits under a tree....

I sit at the well....

We are not so different.

Looking for quenching...

I have finally found it...

He is still looking...

We are not so different.


I have etched David's name in my prayer journal so many times....

Will I see the fruit of those prayers? Maybe not.

But, just like Jesus whispered to me as I was contemplating approaching David today....seeing him is not for him, it is for me. 

I need the reminder.

Lest I forget and stay at the well.

I am hopeful that David will drink from the Living Water one sweet day....in the meantime, I will meet him under that tree.

He has found the shade....I am hopeful that he will find the Water.



getting up from the well,



jill








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