Feb 2, 2012

Thursday SHINE...

Today's reading: 1 Samuel 24 

Happy Thursday, sweet SHINE friends! Is this story getting good or what?

Wow, talk about a twist in events.

Saul continues to pursue David in a cave. Yes, a cave. Can you imagine?

David was hiding from a man that was trying to kill him in a cave. Talk about hide-and-go-seek gone awry. Good grief.

David's men are encouraging him that this would be the day that he would kill Saul. Finally!

However, David's conscience gets the best of him. He decides to not kill Saul when he has the perfect chance.

"May the Lord judge between you and me. " 1 Samuel 24:12

Seriously? Is David for real?

Once again,  David's heart wins over his flesh.

Let's bring this back home to our own little worlds.

 Do you have an enemy? Maybe not necessarily someone trying to kill you, but someone that just likes to trip you up? Someone that never ever gives you a break? Someone that always seems to say the wrong things to you at all the wrong times? Someone that just seems to make it their goal in life to make you miserable? Someone that just has no clue about how wrong they are?

How does this person make you feel? Be real...do you cringe just thinking of this person?

Don't you just sometimes wish they would do something really stupid so that you could secretly (or openly) laugh at them and feel like justice has been served?

Yep, me too.

Maybe this person is not even an enemy technically but somebody that just seems to always "have it together" in their perfect little world. It's nauseating, right? You would love to see them fall...for once.

Who is your Saul, sweet friend? Is it your co-worker, your neighbor, a family member, a parent,  a friend who wronged you or betrayed you?  Your Saul may even be your husband....

Forgive them. Love them. Show them grace. Pray for them.

Isn't that what David did?

He had the chance to finally get Saul and what did he do?

He courageously humbled himself before Saul. He chose to trust God with the outcome instead of taking matters into his own hands, literally.

David, once again, chose obedience over his flesh.

Girls, are we getting this?

How did Saul respond? He wept and then asked the Lord to reward David for the mercy he had shown him.

(Saul has a change of heart in the near future....BUT, that's not the point.)

The point is this: What is God showing you through your "Saul"?

Is He trying to teach you something about grace, mercy, love, and obedience?

Whew. Yes, I am feeling the same little ping in my heart.

What will our response be, girls? Will we kick them when they are finally down? Even if we don't show them our delight in their troubles, do we smirk and cheer for their demise in our heart...where we think nobody can see?

Or will we be the one, like David, who makes peace and shows mercy. Even at the expense of those around us wondering what in the world we are doing. Why in the world are we showing someone like that grace.

Okay, listen up. I'm gonna get nitty gritty here for a second.  I remember telling God once that if He would just remove this person (my Saul) from my life, everything would be so much better. I would be happy and things would be great.  I asked the Lord for this person to move to another state, anything...just get her out of my hair.

Mmmm, not proud of this.

I will never forget the Lord's answer back to me:

 "Jill, she's not the problem, you are. If I remove her from your life, I will just send two more just like her. Until you let Me fix you, nothing will ever change."

You could have knocked me over with a feather.

 Okay, I get it, Lord.

It's me who needs the change of heart. No matter how someone treats me, I need to have such a purified heart that I will not be moved. I will trust that the Lord is molding me in this situation. If I just stay obedient and show this person grace and love, my perspective will change.

Not sure about you, but the Lord sure is molding this heart of mine. Each day I feel Him shaping and scraping the rough edges that have formed over the years.

How will we respond, girls?

Let's be like David. Once and for all.

chiseling of the heart happening here,


" I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity." 1 Chronicles 29:17


Anonymous said...

tears! so, so, so hard to live like this~ but i pray daily to do so. being wronged, knocked down, picked on, laughed at, defriended relationships~these things get me way down. however, god wants us to have a heart like david. to forgive, to love, to serve(that will get you!), to be the true person in this case! praying for broken relationships in my life. that i can be like david every.single.minute in their lives! strength that only comes from God! " Be kind. every person you face in life is fighting some battle"---this quote helps me with the sauls in my life. we all have battles--actions are usually a result in hurt. thank you jill--i am even stronger today! hope i can see those people today and show love in a way only God can explain...whew! thanks!! love always-erin spinks

Rebekah Hudgins said...

I have just been in prayer for my heart this morning. Then, in reading this, I am feeling like the Lord has definitely got my attention. I am praying for the Holy Spirit to be with me and purify my heart. I think God has given me a discerning spirit. It helps me in my career. Sometimes, I let it trickle or flow into seeing what others should be doing. Instead of focusing on my own heart and life. God is really reminding me of this constantly. So, I don't have one Saul I have way too many. :(

Saul was so wrong, David doesn't seem to get hung up on that at all. He continues to love the Lord with all of his heart and focuses on obedience to Christ. Christ is right with David. Blessing everything he touches. While David has the upmost respect for Saul.

I don't meet the mark. Not by a long shot. But, I am so glad to have this dialogue with Christ so that the Holy Spirit can be helping me clean up this area of my heart. Pass the Clorox, Lord,

Love you, Jill, thank you again,

Rebekah Hudgins said...

Utmost. :)

michelle chapman said...

Right there w u Beka! My spiritual gift is actually discernment! Ouch! SO not what I thought my gift should be! Not my choice for sure, but learning to accept it and do his will through it :) Love u shine girls!!!

Women Who Pray said...

Reminded so well here...the words in verse 6..."The LORD forbid that I should do this thing to my master, the LORD's anointed, to stretch out my hand against him, seeing he is the anointed of the LORD." Our weapons are not carnal..flesh...like David's and Saul's. The O.T. is such a picture of the spiritual realm. The LORD is calling us to speak words of life...that only come from the WORD..we speak things that are not as though they are like our Father. Cursing and blessing God says are not to be in the same mouth...blessing God and cursing (criticizing) our brothers and sisters in Christ...our families...even our enemies that we are told to love. Erin, I agree with you and ask for myself that all broken relationships be healed...even tiny breaches..scratches...total healing between us and our Sauls. Thanks Jill..good job. I agree Beka that that gift of discernment...so precious when ministering...can bite us at times...we carry that anointing with much humility and grace...or we miscarry and get burned ourselves. He is a consuming fire, girls...and we are, together, allowing Him to purify these hearts of ours..that are becoming ONE...as Jesus prayed in the Garden for us (John 17). I pray you all have a blessed day..and coming weekend...I will be retreating with a Bible Study group (Methodist)...the leader is my friend from high school. Make me a blessing, LORD...I pray.

Anonymous said...

this post is so timely. this is no accident. through tears just earlier this week i begged the father to help me love a saul in my life. i feel i am being chased...a lot like david. and tho i feel my shine has been dimmed this week, i am determined to keep going.

desiring and working on the purity of my heart,

a shine sister

Samantha said...

I contiunue to be blown away and my heart is stirred this week with each chapter we read.....such an example in David, amazing really -

I loved the way you put it Jill " No matter how someone treats me, I need to have such a purified heart that I will not be moved."

Praying for the same thing myself!

Melissa Martin said...

Today is my first day of "Shining" with you girls...so happy to be here!
I wanted to pass along a resource that has been invaluable to me in dealing with the "Saul" in my life. Phillip Yancy's book "What's So Amazing about Grace" is life-changing. Several years ago I was leading a Bible Study and as a group we chose that book for our spring study. When I began the study I couldn't think of any "Sauls" in my life...because I had just decided to "be nice" to the one person who'd hurt me the most and it would all work out. Well, God had a different plan! He opened the wound and showed me the festering blisters within it - and convicted me that I could not show my 3 children HIS love with a fake smile and an insincere heart. I prayed about it and I cried about it and agonized over it - and then felt led to take my children to visit this person (the woman my dad had just married - the cause of my parents' divorce). My dad called me back to his room to talk to me and I looked over and saw the book "What's So Amazing about Grace" on her bedside table. Talk about God confirming you are on the right path...I am so thankful for my Savior who calls me to live in HIS grace. Praise be to God!

Anonymous said...

melissa~ i love this!! thanks for the reminder about GRACE!!
love, erin:)

Jill said...

That's awesome, Melissa. :) and.... Welcome to SHINE! so happy to have you on this journey with us! :)

Anonymous said...

Wow! God's timing is perfect. I was just about to decline an invitaion to hang out with my "Saul" later today. I thought that this would "show" her that her actions have consequences. However, God spoke to me through this chapter and through you all that I need to love her the way God loves her! Thank you SHINE girls ans thank you LORD!

Anonymous said...

I am in disbelief as I read this morning's post. If I didn't know better, I would be certain that you eaves dropped in on me and a friends conversation just yesterday...and it was actually a conversation by email so eaves dropping is out of the question. I told her that if I didn't have a certain person in my life, I knew I could be the person God is calling me to be. This person is robbing me of my joy and constantly hurting my feelings resulting in my arguing with them and harboring so much bitterness and resentment towards them. I was looking for some sympathy... Boy was I in for it...this new found "Jonathon" courageously told me that I was the problem and to quit trying to get God to change this person and instead pray God would change me! So after I was able to stand back up after being knocked clean off my feet, I knew she was right. She said "this isn't about you and the other person, it is about you and the Lord."

So my spring cleaning has begun early this year and I am determined to purify this heart of mine and my eyes are fixed on all God has in store for me as I strive to be obedient to Him in all areas of my life but especially in this relationship...this most precious relationship, my husband.

Needless to say, this post was God's second way and second time of telling me to shut up, be still, and listen. I have been praying for God to speak to me "crystal clear" so there is no confusion that I am hearing from Him. Well, that's about as crystal as it gets. Let me clarify, the new found "Jonathon" I referred to just walked into my life this past weekend. She doesn't know me from Adam. Just the quick who I am and why I'm so miserable in a nutshell story I told her. Unbelievable, right? Clearly, the Holy Spirit is speaking through her to me.

God amazes me every. single. day! I'm with ya Rebekah...Pass the Clorox Lord. Got some filth that needs the hard stuff to come clean.

Shutting up, being still, and listening all for you Lord, all for you.

Jill said...

SHINE on, girlie!

Jill said...

the Holy Spirit is right on time, always. don't ya just love how personal He is?? wow.

bring on the clorox! (always love a little bleach!) :)

Anonymous said...

Anon, so moved by your incredible break through. I also can relate and was very inspired by your truthfulness. The hardest thing sometimes is looking in the mirror at ourselves, as oppose to seeing only the other people, the Holy Spirit has indeed given you the clarity you prayed for. Praying with you as you clean out those creepy crawlers that hide in the cobwebs of those dark places. Be still sweet girl and keep on communicating with your "Jonathon," the Holy Spirit, and the Lord.

Rebekah Hudgins Vepraskas said...

Nothing, OH nothing, is quite like bleach. :)