Jan 18, 2012

Wednesday SHINE...

Today's reading: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20samuel%2013&version=MSG

As I got up this morning to read 1 Samuel 13, I have to be honest..I wasn't really feeling it. I could tell as soon as I poured my hot coffee that I wanted to go through the motions a little today.

I wanted to just kind of stay numb and in my own thoughts. I  wanted to process some heavy things going on right now around me. I wanted to just wrap my brain around those things and figure them out.

As I type this, my eyes are blood-shot, and tear stains are on my cheeks.

Reading 1 Samuel 13 was really the last thing I wanted to do as I sat down in my little chair in the den at 5:00 am. I just wanted to melt and go away for a little while.

You see, I love getting up early because it helps me to focus and get my day right with the Lord.

However, this morning, I just wanted to sit and cry and try to figure out what I can do to help my loved ones figure out the mess of things that have unfolded. Ugh. Heart broken.

In fact, I found a few quiet minutes yesterday and had already prepared something for today's blog post. I was prepared to send it early this morning.

Change of plans.

Why the change of heart?

I read 1 Samuel 13.

Actually, I had thought about doing my reading later today...I needed to just sit in this chair, drink my coffee and figure things out.

However, I remember telling you all from the first email to read the reading before you do anything else.

I heard my own voice echoing in my head, so I didn't want to be a hypocrite in that respect.

As I looked around for my Bible, I realized that I had left it in the car. Shoot.

I like reading my Bible...my very own.

This day was already starting out not good.

I found my husbands bible and sat down to read.

I'm so glad I did.

In these passages, Saul gets impatient and decides to go ahead with his plan instead of following God's plan. He makes a move too early, and offers the burnt sacrifices before the Lord had appointed Him to.

He was supposed to wait for Samuel to get there before doing this. Saul became impatient and took matters into his own hands.

From that point on, He lost God's favor.

Oh, girls! This is HUGE to me!

How many times, have I taken matters into my own hands because I didn't want to wait any longer? I wanted to rush to the outcome that I so desperately wanted...only to find that it led to disappointment.

What is God telling us in 1 Samuel 13?

Keep TRUSTING Him and stay OBEDIENT to Him, even when things seems bleak and hopeless.

Oh, man...could God make it any clearer to me this morning?

Here I was trying to figure out how to make things better and tweak the seemingly inevitable outcomes of things around me.

However, God is telling me..."wait on me, Jill. Wait on me. Trust in me. Despite the looming clouds and the thunder and lightning...wait on me. Trust me."

Not sure about you girls, but I don't want to be like Saul. I don't EVER want to lose God's favor because I lacked the faith in Him to carry me through.

I want to be the one that trusts Him, no matter. No matter what.

What storms are raging around you that you are doing everything in your power to control?

Are you truly trusting and waiting on the Lord through faith and obedience?

Or, are you like Saul (and myself)..and have decided to take matters in your own hands and hoping God will think your idea is a better one.

Oh, girls....let's not miss this.

Let's learn from Saul. Let's learn from his mistakes.

Stay on course, girls. Let's quit taking matters into our own hands because we are impatient.

Let's trust Him. No matter what.

"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26


re-setting my compass,

jill






10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jill, I was also reading this at 5am but did not take away from the reading what you have just explained here. Which is really sad because it's a lesson I needed to hear now. Alan and I are currently trying to control a situation that needs to rest; we need to let Him take over. Thank you for your leadership. Hopefully I can find some peace today knowing I'm in the passenger seat, and it's a beautiful ride.

Angie L

Anonymous said...

Thanks Jill I too needed to hear to stop and wait. So often we (I) want so badly for things to get better for the people we love the most ( for me it is my grown daugther as grown as you get at 19) that we try to fix everything. I cant make things workout for her. I have to wait for God to work in her life. It is do hard for a mom to wait. Pray for her that she will listen to God and not to the person who just wants to control her.

Mary Hudgins Balicki said...

Praying for this unspoken need, Jill and thank you for your open and honest heart. Love you friend.

Aunt Teddi said...

Bulls eye! Target hit! Obedience is better than sacrifice is what Samuel said in a later place...but it sooo applies here! Not only is it a message to you, Jill, or to me..and all of we Shinegirls...but look at the domino effect if we don't get it! If we don't allow Him to do the work He's promised...and in His order! Samuel was the priest...the intercessor..the prophet...Saul was the king. Without Samuel's orderly...Godly connection...Saul could not receive the blessing of that day...and the days to come. The words from Samuel, "What have you done?" and then after Saul's explanation...well, you were not here Samuel...and I knew what you would do...so, I did it. Then from Samuel "You have done foolishly. You have not kept the commandment of the LORD your God, which He commanded you. For now the LORD would have established your kingdom over Israel forever." Take a deep breath...How long? FOREVER...but then he says..."But now your kngdom shall not continue. The LORD has sought for Himself a man after His own heart, and the LORD has commanded him to be commander over His people, because you have not kept what the LORD commanded you." Forgive us LORD, for all sin of pride in the body of Christ! For the times we say, I don't have to listen to the authority You've placed over me...I don't have to wait...I want now...Oh God may we women of God...may we Your prayer warriors...your daughters...Your mothers...and sisters...we wives...may we hear Your voice and obey all that You have commanded us. May we not fret over what or how others do...may we look directly into Your WORD and line ourselves up. May we not take the role that You have not given us..and then see all the repercussions that will come because we were not patiently waiting on You. Quite a study, Jill, I must say...maybe one of the best ever! :) <3

Anonymous said...

My pastor once said, "You make your best decisions in the peace of God." I, too, needed to hear this Jill! I've GOT to learn to wait and have patience and trust in His timing and His ability. Thank you for the inspiration. I'll be praying for you and the situation with your loved ones. Love, Sarah F.

brandi s said...

I am in Awe!
I just had an in depth conversation last night about being so angry with God. He knows how impatient I am and continues to test me in exactly that department. I find that as soon as I can hear Him (an actual audible wisper) and I feel Satans attack (normally at the same time period) I find it easy to flee. To actually turn my back and run!

I just came to realize that I don't trust him...because I continually "take matters into my own hands". I don't wait for his guidance or instructions. How foolish!!
Brandi S
Thanks Jill for being so honest and candid...it's amazing how God sees it fit to communicate with us.

brandi s said...

Amen! Amen! Amen! <3 you!

shine said...

Yes, Jill, I love it too when the Lord gets personal. My personal scripture God gave me for this year is Psl 27:14 'wait on the Lord. Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait on theLord'. I don't have to listen for the still small voice on this one. It's loud and clear, He said it twice. So GOOD is our God how He ties it all in personally and collectively. Thank you for your dicipline JILL this morn. We receive and it's good. WOW

shine said...

Love, Terri Abbott... Just set this account up. Duh is me!

Anonymous said...

Yes! Trying to fix things or make right a situation is always our human desire, however to wait on the Lord is powerful. He will speak, I promise. I used to use the term lightly--"if God would just writ it out in the sky", I would....fill in the blank.. However, God speaks to us all the time. Focus on him and His voice can be heard. So glad you, Jill are leading us. Your humbleness to speak truth about yourself makes us all know that this is a learning stage in our own lives. WE all pray for each other, encourage each other, fall down together, pick each other back up again. Life is joined--we are all holding on together to reach the same goal. Praying for us all <3
love,
erin spinks