May 15, 2015

Two are better than one...

When my children were born, I began a journal for them. I would write them letters each time I had the chance to sit down. Which was very rare.

I still write in these journals when I have time. Which, again, is very rare.

Yesterday, I witnessed such love and friendship among my circle of friends. I was literally moved to tears over an act of love that was done for our precious friend, Erin. Erin's husband Chuck was in a terrible accident at work two weeks ago. Truly, it is a miracle he is alive.

Chuck will be coming home from the hospital this weekend. Finally.

On a side note, we are trying to raise 10,000 to help them in their time of need. If you feel led to donate any amount, please visit their Go Fund Me link. Thank you so much.

Erin's friends decided that we all needed to make her home "ready" for when they arrive. It was a beautiful sight to see my friends cleaning, scrubbing, folding clothes, vacuuming, and wiping down counter tops. A sight I will NEVER forget.

Here we are...I promise I don't usually wear a dress when I clean. Although, I am a dead ringer for June Cleaver in this picture.



When I pulled out of the drive way, I broke down in tears. I was literally broken by the love that took place in that house.

I immediately thanked the Lord for friends like this. I then prayed that my children would be surrounded by these kinds of friends.

Here is a letter that I wrote to my daughter Presley telling her the importance of friendship. I am definitely not an expert on the subject, but I have definitely learned some things along the way.
Words will never be able to properly convey my heart, but here goes.

Dear Presley,

Today I witnessed a beautiful sight. I wish so much you could have been with me. I would have loved for you to witness such a gift of love. You surely would have never forgotten this day. I know that I never will.

Here is my take away from today:

Choose your friendships wisely.

Pray for God to guide you to the right friends.

Surround yourself with godly girlfriends.

Be a good friend.

Show up for your friends. [Even when you don't know what to say, show up anyway.]

Make time for friendships. [you will need them one day.]

Be a loyal friend. If you would not say something to your friend's face, then do not say it behind her back. This is HUGE. People will catch on quickly if you are always tearing down someone else.

Be the kind of friend that you want in return. [enough said]

Be an encourager of your friends. Always. No matter what.

Be an encourager of your friends marriage. NEVER dog your friend's spouse. Ever. Support your friends marriage every chance you get. Be very leery of a friend who sets you against your spouse. Dangerous ground. Very dangerous ground.

Be a listener. Let me repeat: Be a listener. Don't hog the conversation with all of your stuff. Take time to hear your friend. You just may learn something by listening.

Pray for your friends. Daily. Cover them in prayer. Thank God for them and pray blessings upon them and their family.

Don't take everything personal. Really, it's not all about you. Be a big girl. Try not to be so sensitive to every little thing in your friendships. It's annoying to be so sensitive that people have to walk on eggs shells around you.

Encourage your friends to be friends with each other. This is the BEST thing ever. When the people you love meet other people you love, it just makes life FUN!!!

Love your friend's children. Take the time to get to know them. Talk to them. Look them in the eyes. The friends that I am the closest to, LOVE my children. This is so HUGE. When friends love on your kids, it makes for an even sweeter friendship.

Give everyone the benefit of the doubt. EVERY single time. This will give your heart so much peace. So MUCH PEACE. Never assume the worst. Ever. Give everyone in your life mercy. Endless mercy. Because you will want mercy as well.

Nobody is perfect. Not even you. Don't expect your friends to be perfect. They will fail you in this. And you will fail them. Be gracious and make it a habit to overlook their faults on a very regular basis. You will want them to overlook yours.

Support your friends. Be their biggest fan. Toot their horn for them. Tell the world of their gifts and talents. Everyone needs a friend like this. Even if you think they don't need another fan...they DO! Be their biggest cheerleader.

Do not ever be jealous of your friends having other friends. Encourage them in other friendships. Be glad for them. Nobody likes a jealous friend.

Jealousy will enter in at some point with certain friends. FIGHT against it with prayer. Jealousy will destroy relationships in one fail swoop. Do not let your friendships be taken down by this ugly green-eyed monster. Pray against a jealous heart on a daily basis.

When your friends find success, be happy for them! Be truly happy for them! Let them know how happy you are---and mean it!

Call your friends back. Text your friends back. Even if it is just a short little message. Let them know they are important. It's rude and tactless to never respond.  Try to be diligent with this. [I am still working on this too!]

Know your friends' birthdays. Call them or send them a card. Celebrate them! Don't you love to be celebrated?

If you are caught in the middle of a conversation where another friend is being torn apart, be brave. Speak up and take up for your friend. Silence is not always golden. You can still be kind to the friends that are tearing to pieces the other friend. Just let them know you do not want to be a part of this kind of conversation. Your friends will appreciate your bravery. And they will probably secretly hope to have your courage one day. They will also know and appreciate that you would take up for them as well.

Be leery of friends who always have a "secret" to share about someone else. They will be sharing your secrets too. Be careful. The bible tells us not to "throw our pearls to pigs." Take this to heart. Along with this, guard a friend who has entrusted a secret to you with your life. Throw away the key.

Remember, friendships can go through seasons. Don't get discouraged if you find yourself a little distant or out of sync with certain friends. Don't focus on the distance. Focus on the ones you have right in front of you in that season. Seasons come and go. Enjoy each friend in each season.

Don't forget to LAUGH with your friends! Even in the sad times, find the JOY! God's Word says that a cheerful heart is the best medicine. IT IS TRUE.

Surround yourself with different ages of friends. Older ones, younger ones, and ones that are the same age. You will learn from ALL OF THEM. I promise you this!

Have at least one or two friends that are mentors to you. Friends that you can learn things from in being a wife and in motherhood. Do not be intimidated by these kind of friends. Soak up every ounce of their wisdom on a regular basis. I cannot stress to you how important this is! Highlight this one!


Oh, Presley. I am praying for your friendships. What a gift it will be to my heart to see you surrounded by godly girlfriends as you grow up. You can count on me to daily encourage you in this area. I will daily pray for you to be that kind of friend as well.

I love you. So much.

your biggest fan,


Mommy
 
 
Two are better than one,
    because they have a good return for their labor:
If either of them falls down,
    one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
    and has no one to help them up.
Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
    But how can one keep warm alone?
Though one may be overpowered,
    two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12



May 14, 2015

Don't Quit.....

The Lord always speaks to me through the life of my kids. Always.

Since I began writing on this blog, I have almost daily wanted to shut it down and quit writing. As much as I love writing, at times it feels too vulnerable. Too exposed. Too much.

 Sometimes I just want to be a different kind of girl. A girl that has different gifts and different talents other than the ones God has given me.

I want to be like my friend who can make the best cinnamon rolls in town. Or like my friend who has the gift of hospitality. Or like my friend who sings on stage and sounds like an angel. Or like my friend who has a passion for healthy eating and exercising. Or like my friend who is a teacher at our local school and is loved by all of her students. Or like my sister who is crazy talented with hair and makeup. Or like my mom who can make anyone laugh in five seconds flat.

Most of my life I have questioned my talents. Often wondering if I had any.

However, very recently something happened with one of my kids. Something God used to speak so pointedly to my heart.

My daughter was singing in the car. I told her how beautiful her voice was. She stopped and said, "I have a horrible voice. Nobody ever says I sing pretty when I sing at recess."

I replied back to her, "I think you sing beautiful, sweet girl. You make my heart so happy every time I hear you sing."

She replied back, "I am just never going to sing again. Nobody listens anyway."

As I envisioned my struggle with wanting to keep writing, I thought about her words.

My daughter has a gift. A gift of a sweet singing voice. She blesses me each time she sings. God has given her the ability to hear music and sing in tune. Why would she ever think that of not using her gift?

God gives us gifts to ultimately glorify Him.

We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. Romans 12:6

Our gifts are not about the people that do not celebrate our gifts, it is about the Giver of the Gift.

It all goes back to Him.

When we are waiting for the world to give its approval, our gifts will be suffocated and smoldered. Or even worse, never used.

God is showing me that when I write, it is not about how many people read it or approve. My writing is for Him. Whatever He does with it, us up to Him.

We may never, ever know what He does with our gifts. Although, I do believe He gives us glimpses occasionally.

However, we deprive ourselves and others when we choose to not use our gifts and talents. Just like with my daughter's singing, if she doesn't sing, I will miss out on the opportunity to hear her sweet voice.

If my mom decided to stop being funny, I would miss being able to belly laugh with her! If my friend decided to stop making cinnamon rolls, I would miss out on the best cinnamon rolls my tongue ever tasted!

Maybe you feel your gift is not special or important. Maybe, like me, you wish you had someone else's gift.

I encourage you to embrace what God has given you. If you have any doubt about your gift, talk to God about it. He will make clear your path. Trust Him to lead you.

Ask a close friend, or your husband. They will tell you what your gifts are. Sometimes it's something that comes so natural to us we don't even notice it.

I pray God will surround you with encouraging friends that cheer you on as you use and discover your gifts.  Pray for these kinds of friends. They will spur you on when you want to quit. Trust me on this one.

Let's be THOSE kind of friends.  Let's encourage each other instead of comparing ourselves to each other. Let's take the time to notice when a friend needs a little lift. It could make a world of difference in their life.

"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds"Hebrews 10:24

So, I guess I will keep writing. I know there will be days when I want to close up shop. I will try my best to remember that writing is not about me, it is about Him. The Giver.


still writing,


jill


May 12, 2015

Pray for him....

The destruction of the family begins with the destruction of the marriage. My husband used to be an afterthought in my prayer life. Sad, but true. My kids were the focal point of all of my prayers.

One sweet day, the Lord reminded me that if my marriage wasn't pointing towards Him, our lives would start slowly drifting apart. Our children need our marriage to be healthy and whole. The best thing I can ever to for my children is to pray for their daddy.

The stability or instability of our marriage trickles down into their precious lives. If I'm not praying for my husband, I am slowly drifting from him. My attitude can also be pretty crappy unless I stay in constant prayer on his behalf. Praying for my husband produces a deeper love and level of intimacy. It draws my heart closer to my husband, regardless of how I "feel" about him at any given moment.

God's word tells us that we became "one flesh" when we said our vows. So, in order for both of us to stay in tact, my prayers for him are vital. Here are a few prayers I like to pray from scripture over him:

Lord, capture all of my husband's thoughts to the obedience of Christ. (2 Cor 2:5)

Fill my husband's thoughts so he will not be filled with worry. (Col 3:2)

Flood my husband's heart with You, so that he can see the future You have in store for us. (Eph 1:17-18)

Open my husband's heart to hear Your voice as You tell him which way to go each day. (Deut 4:36)

May my husband's life be refreshing to others (2 Cor 2:15)

Set a watch over my husband's mouth, and keep the door of his lips. (Psalm 141:3)

Bring health to his body and nourishment to his bones. (Proverbs 3:7-8)

Create in my husband a clean heart filled with right desires. (Psalm 51:10)

Lord, bless my the work of my husband's hands. (Proverbs 22:9)

I encourage you not to lose heart. Keep praying, and watching to see what God does with your prayers. Let your prayers for your husband be the first words uttered from your mouth each day.

 "Do not get weary in prayer, but keep praying, being watchful and thankful." (Col 3:2)

Apr 30, 2015

Hit the floor.....

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Late Tuesday night my oldest child, Joseph, left on a field trip to Disney. Yes, DISNEY. I don't remember having those kinds of trips when I was his age. Do you??

It's a little hard letting my children go for a few days. It's never been an easy thing for me.

Fear has been a big part of those reasons. Yes, I love my kids.  However, fear is what made my heart tremble when they would be out of my sight. I felt like as long as they were with me, they would be fine. Control issues, I know.

Early in my parenting years, fear haunted me day in and day out. I could not eat some days. I could not sleep. Fear tormented my mind. Every possible worse scenario I could imagine, is what my mind stayed focused on. It was terrible.

My husband thought I was going crazy. In fact, I probably was. The enemy was whispering lies into my ears and I was listening to them and believing them.

There were many days when I would drop my kids off at school and go home and cry. All day long.

Fear was my enemy.

One day, a wise friend told me to pray scripture over them each day. She told me that not only would it help me, but it would help them.

I thought it was a little crazy at first, because I wasn't really believing what I was praying. It felt kind of not natural. My mind and my flesh were very opposed to praying like this. If I was praying, who was going to worry for me?? Crazy, I know.

Soon after, I began to hang scripture all around my house. At the coffee pot, in my bathroom, in the kids rooms...all over the house. Lem thought I had officially lost my mind. When, in fact, I was beginning to get my mind back from the enemy.

Those horrible thoughts were now being pounded with Truth. Day in. Day out.

Those fearful thoughts had no choice but to leave. They could not dwell where Truth was beginning to dwell. They didn't even stand a chance.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:12

Praying scripture over my children changed my life. Dramatically. It brought peace to  heart racked with fear. It brought joy to a heart in despair.

My old prayers sounded something like this, "God bless my children. Keep them safe, please!!!"

God taught me through His Word to change my prayers to this: "Keep my children from all harm. Watch over their life, watch over their coming and going. Both now and forevermore." Psalm 121:7-8

When we pray God's word back to Him something amazing happens. His Will opens up. The Heavens open up at the sound of His Word being spoken back to Him! You can even feel it in your spirit as you pray! When His Words become our words, POWER comes!

If you are new at this, or if you have been doing this all along, I want to share some of my favorite scripture prayers with you. You will adapt to your favorites along the way, but this will get you started.

"Lord lead my children away from temptation, and deliver them from the evil one." Matthew 6:13

"Put a hedge of protection around my children and everything they have" Job 1:10

"Remind my children that they belong to you and not the world" John 17:15

"Lord, cause my children to love their enemies, to do good to those who hate them, to bless those who curse them, to pray for those that mistreat them. Help them do to others as they would have done to them." Luke 6:27-31

"I pray that my children's identity will be firmly rooted and established in Christ's love, and that they may have power together with all the saints, to grasp how wide, and how long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge...that they may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:17-19

"Let my children know that they belong to you" Romans 14:7-9

"Let the light of your face shine upon my children. Fill their heart with joy, and let them lie down and sleep in peace." Psalm 4:6-8 [a really good nighttime prayer]

"Show my children that they are fearfully and wonderfully made, and that your works are wonderful. Teach them that they are precious in your sight, and that you love them." Psalm 139:14, Isaiah 43:4

"Like Timothy, may my children be an example to believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity" 1 Timothy 4:12

"Please let my children have the ability to rise above the traps of people pleasing so they can be kept safe by trusting You, Lord" Proverbs 29:25

"May my children think on whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is commendable; if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, may he think about these things" Philippians 4:8


The best way we can win the battle for the hearts of our children is on our knees. So, let's start praying now. Shall we?


on my knees,


jill

Apr 28, 2015

Hurry up and wait.....

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Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Joshua 1:7

My family and I just returned from Spring Break at the beach. It was heavenly.

However, returning home to a to-do list a mile long, and laundry two miles long, my heavenly mind-set was quickly forgotten.

I woke up Monday morning later than usual, which always makes for a not-so-happy-Jill.

Even after my coffee, I wasn't quite feeling the spring in my step. It was totally void of spring. My spring had sprung out.

Fortunately, I made it to my little Monday morning prayer group and my attitude shifted substantially. Until, it was time to go to the grocery store. Ugh.

As I sat in the parking lot of the grocery store, going over my list, and balancing my check book to see how much I could spend, I received a text. It was from my daughter's teacher.

This is all it said: "Today, I had the students finish this sentence, "My mom always_______."
Presley's sentence said, "My mom always.....loves me."

Right there in the midst of my chaotic morning, I felt the gentle gift of God's grace and Presence.

He knew I needed those words. Perfect timing.

I looked at the clock. My daughter would be eating lunch in  10 minutes. I didn't really have time to go and eat with her at school. My day was jam packed already. Too much to do. Way too much.

In my pondering, I envisioned her sweet face if I were to show up and surprise her at lunch.

I went to the Lord in prayer immediately. It went something like this:

Lord, you know all I have to do today. Help me decide what to do. I want to see my girl and bring joy to her day. However, I don't want to make my day more stressful by putting off my duties. Lead me in the way I should go in this moment. Preferably let me know within the next 5 minutes! Thank you, and amen.

I left the grocery store and had lunch with my girl. The choice was clear in that moment. My stuff would just have to wait. It would be there all week.

Sometimes, we get ourselves so wrapped up in our "schedule", that we miss God's plan. We miss the moments that take us to the next step He has for us. We have a time line. We have a vision. We have a mission. We certainly don't have time to stop and ask Him for directions.

That's where we mess up.

When we can put it all down, sit with Him, and ask Him which way to go.....we end up on the path our souls really long for. His path. His way. His plan.

Often I have found myself doing things that "make sense". Things that seem to be "logical". Things that seem to be "perfect" for me. Things that others seem to be doing that "work".

A few miles down that road, I often find out that it wasn't really for me after all. I had never sought God and asked His way. Or His plan. I wasn't "still" enough to hear Him. Many times I  have asked Him as I was already running full spring to the destination I had picked. But, I never stopped, halted, and waited for His Answer.

When I find myself running through my day, annoyed at long lines, long-winded people, slow drivers, and slow service....

I need to stop. Talk to God. Listen for Him. Wait for Him.

Maybe He has put these things in my path because the path I am on is not the right one.

I love how Joshua listened to God. He watched Moses do it, and now he was doing the same thing. He learned from the best.

Joshua would not take a step without knowing His directions from the Lord. Joshua was successful because He waited to hear from God. Every single time.

When the world is shouting, "Go! Now is your time! This makes perfect sense! Just do it!"

Be careful.

We shouldn't have to be talked into something. Our spirit should already know what to do if we are listening for God's voice.

So, how can we know when to go and when to wait?

  • Seek the Lord in prayer.
  • Seek the Lord in His Word.
  • Seek one or two godly mentors.
  • Ask God to remove any part of your will, and only give you His will and His desires.
  • Ask for several forms of affirmation that this is His will for you.
  • Wait. And wait some more.
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. New Living Translation Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Psalm 27:4

Maybe the wait is hard. Yes, it is hard. But going against His plan is much harder on us.




learning from Joshua,


jill



Apr 17, 2015

Oops, I did it again....

Oops. I did it again.

Pride.

I let it win. Again.

A few weeks ago, I allowed pride to get in the way of a relationship. I knew pride was coming. I could see it a mile and half away. However, I didn't care. I was willing to have one second of a "good" feeling with pride, instead of having to lower myself in humility. 
 
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18

Pride never works in our favor. It beckons to protect us, to justify us, and to soothe our hurt feelings.

Oh, isn't that just like the enemy to tell us lies to lead us into sinful behavior? He makes it seem "reasonable". He makes it seem "right". He makes it seem like he has our best interest at heart.

Liar.

Satan did the same thing to Jesus. He tempted him in the desert. He waited for Jesus to be weak, hungry, and thirsty. Then, he pounced on Jesus.

Jesus didn't budge though. He stood strong and replaced Satan's temptations with Truth.

The enemy entices us with pride when we are weak as well. When we have been overlooked, hurt, forgotten, rejected, or taken advantage of.

Pride speaks to our deepest desires. To be known. To be noticed. To be right. To be worthy. To be admired.

Which is exactly why it is at the root of almost every bad decision we make.

If you are breathing, you have had a struggle with pride.

Pride isn't always what you think though....

Pride disguises itself in insecurity. I used to say, "there is NO way I could struggle with pride, I am way too insecure".

Wrong.

Insecurity is looking "inside" for our security. Insecurity is self-focused and self-aware to a fault.

We also mistake self-deprecation for humility. Another lie.

Self-deprecation is a focus on self. Self is the opposite of humility.

When we self-deprecate, we are begging for people to tell us otherwise.

The more others reassure us, the more reassurance we crave. Y'all know this is true!

We become needy for approval. So, we take on an "I am not worthy" approach, and we get the attention we are craving.

Humility is the opposite of self.

Our culture has a humility drought. It's a rare treasure in this world we live in.

Humility doesn't self-promote. Humility doesn't self-protect. Humility doesn't hide in insecurity.

When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. Proverbs 11:2

Remember the story of King Saul? He had a pride problem. It became his ultimate downfall. He could not stand the fact that David was so loved and adored. It literally drove him to his death.

He was blinded by jealousy. Which, at the root of it, was his pride.

King Saul started off with God's favor. He eventually lost it due to his pride.

Why is it that we can see pride a MILE away in others, but we are the last to see it in ourselves?

As women, we can feel it swell up inside of us. When we are not included in an activity with our friends. When someone is chosen over us for a job or position. When our children make us look like HORRIBLE parents in a restaurant or grocery store. When our husband's don't notice our adorable outfit or that the floors are so clean you could eat off of them. When someone pulls out in front of us, or gets called to an "open lane" in the grocery store when you have been standing there for 20 minutes! How dare they!!

Pride swells up. We react. By anger, sadness, jealousy, bitterness, pulling away....

We think those things will soothe our hurt. IT DOESN"T.

God hates pride. Because it damages us. It takes us down roads that God did not plan for us to go down.

Your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God. Deuteronomy 8:14

What would happen if we could stop pride as soon as we feel it welling up inside of us?

What if we stop and say, "No way! Pride, you will not win! I will not let you take over this time. I will choose to be humble. To turn the other cheek. To show grace. To show love. To give the benefit of the doubt until I draw my last breath."

Y'all, we have to daily, yes daily, ask God to show us any areas of pride in our lives. Pride likes to hide in dark places of our heart. Ask God to call it out into the light! Get that junk out of there!

"Lord, remove any and all pride from my life." Let this be the first prayer that leaves our lips each day.

I think about Jesus every time I think about humility. I see His face. He was the Son of God, and there was not an ounce of pride in Him. He washed feet. He served others. He took time for others. He prayed for others. Even in His death, He prayed that God would forgive them for what they were doing to Him.

The Lord has shown me four things to do when I feel pride coming.

  • Repent immediately.
  • Serve someone immediately.
  • Sing another's praises immediately.
  • Pray God's goodness and blessings over someone else [especially the one who has hurt me]immediately.

Y'all, if we want to be lifted up, we must get down low. Really low.

Pride is our enemy.

Humility is our best friend.


cleaning out pride,


jill


Apr 14, 2015

Fearless....

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I hate fear. It has been the enemy in my life for a very long time.

However, there are a few things I have learned about fear. I want to share with you because I know I am not the only one who has struggled with this enemy.

Fear grows each time we pour water on in. What does pouring water on it mean? It means when we continually think about the certain fear over and over. And even worse, when we keep talking about it to others over and over.

So, the more we water fear, the more it grows.

Instead of watering fear, we must starve fear to death. We must stop talking about it. We must take those fearful thoughts and uproot them.

How do we uproot fear? With Truth.

God's Word brings Truth.

Whatever your fear, find a verse in God's Word that obliterates it with Truth.

For example:

Fear: I am scared.

Truth: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

Fear: I am confused and lack peace.  I don't know how things will turn out.

Truth: I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. John 14:27

Fear: I am afraid of what others will say if I speak up or step out.

Truth: "But even if you suffer for doing what is right, God will reward you for it. So don’t worry or be afraid..." 1 Peter 3:14

Fearing people is a dangerous trap, but trusting the Lord means safety. Proverbs 29:25

Fear: I am scared of something bad happening to me or someone I love.

Truth: They do not fear bad news; they confidently trust the Lord to care for them. Psalm 112:7

Fear: I am worried that my past mistakes will haunt me forever.

Truth: Fear not; you will no longer live in shame. Don’t be afraid; there is no more disgrace for you. You will no longer remember the shame of your youth" Isaiah 54:4

For every fear, there is an equal and opposite truth.

This is why we must go to His Word.

We cannot defeat fear without Him. Fear will overtake us and leave us in chains if we choose to sit and just wish it away. It will not go away without God's Power.

We can pray until we are blue in the face. Praying is wonderful. However, we must combine our prayers with the Truth of His Word. That's where the rubber meets the road. Prayer is the gun, His Word is the bullet. You need both of them to kill the enemy.

If you struggle with fear, of any kind, there is healing. And peace. And freedom.

Take God at His Word.

Fear will strangle the life out of you. Trust me, I know. I have been there.

I thank God for the freedom He offers us. We just have to open our bibles to receive it.




loading my gun,



jill




Apr 10, 2015

When words just aren't enough...

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Often, I ask the Lord to speak to me as I sleep. "Whisper to me things You want me to know, Lord. Remind me of the things You have taught me."

Several night ago, I fell asleep with these very words on my lips.

The next morning when I awoke, I heard the scripture over and over in my heart, "Walk by faith, not by sight, Jill."

Little did I know how I would cling to these words in the days to come.

Sight tells me that things change.
Sight tells me that no matter how hard I want to hang on to something, time eventually takes it away. Sight tells me that heartbreak is real. And painful.


Faith tells me it will be okay.
Faith tells me that Joy is coming.
Faith tells me that His Ways are higher than my ways.
Faith tells me that He goes before me and behind me.
Faith tells me that He will never ever leave me or forsake me.
Faith tells me that His yoke is easy and His burden is light.

As I was praying to the Lord yesterday, I prayed for the fruits of the spirit to clothe me. I need the fruits, Lord. I need them now. Wash me in the fruits of Your Spirit.

I repeated them to the Lord, "clothe me with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control."

As soon as the words spilled out of my mouth, I fell back on the word "faithfulness".

Give me faithfulness in abundance, Lord. Yes. That's what I need the most. Flood me with faithfulness.

Sometimes the valleys we walk through are so personal and intimate that only the Lord gets it. Only our Father in Heaven understands the depths of the pain. Words cannot convey properly the ache of our spirits. The groans of a heart in desperate need of faith.

So, we go to the One Who knows. The One who understands. The One who gets it.

In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words Romans 8:26

Really, I don't know how to end this post.

So, I will just let God's Word end it for me...

"I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Romans 8:18

"God is watching over His Word to perform it." Jeremiah 1:12

"He will perfect that which concerns you" Psalm 138:8